[FIC] Memories

Title: Memories
Characters: Super Junior
Rating: R
Chaptercount: 24/26
Summary: Fifteen people try to find the memories they forgot - or maybe they're just looking for each other.
A/N: A fic written on a hunch. One day I thought; "Super Junior. And vampires. This calls for a fic!" and well.. Here we are? Memories is one of the stories that I'm proud of, despite its sometimes messy storyline. It's also a story that won't be fully understood until you've read it completely. Things will be very confusing as you read, but will also get explained in future chapters. Be warned.

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The silence lasted for a while, everyone trying to figure out on their own just how important the new information would be for them. It was obvious to all of them now that there was so much more behind the whole thing than they had initially thought. It wasn’t hard to imagine how much they would be affected by what they had just heard. Homin was capable of understanding that at least, so he turned to the only person who had remained completely still during the whole explanation – curtsey of his friend.

Surprisingly the thoughts coming from the unmoving form were very clear and not at all disconnected like he was used from his own victims. ‘Remember and move.’ he sent the silent order to the unmoving guy, ignoring the look Misun immediately sent him. He watched the eldest out of the group – aside from him – shift in place and then slowly sit up, but didn’t stay behind to see what happened next. Mere moments later he was out of the apartment door, hopefully without anyone noticing.

To his surprise, there was someone following after him and it wasn’t Misun. Instead, the until now rather silent Youngwoon came after him. A hand on his arm was the only thing keeping him from walking off just like that. When he turned around he looked into the dark eyes of one of the oldest members present.

The oldest of his newly created vampires, but also – he suddenly realised – the first in line when it came to heritage. Possibly this vampire had just gotten a power since Kyuhyun had killed Jimin. It took one look past the completely calm exterior to see the completely empty inside of the man. And suddenly Homin realised that he had indeed not heard a single thought coming from the strong man for a while.

“You’re not going anywhere.” Youngwoon spoke, his voice almost a whisper. “Not today and not any day.” The man smiled without emotion, making Homin feel like he was being overpowered. It was unnerving to not hear a single thought for the first time in years. In fact, it was unnerving to see all the people sharing his gifts gathered together.

Only one of them had to to figure out his weak spot and he’d be done for. What he needed was for them to learn how to use their gifts so that he’d be able to live on in peace. A sudden increase of pressure on his wrist made him go back to the present.

“I’m not going anywhere.” he replied, much more calm than he felt. “I’m just giving them some time. Shouldn’t you go inside as well? Your friend woke up with his memories.” He nodded with a smile at the door that had fallen closed behind them. Youngwoon looked back shortly, before turning to look at him again.

“I’m constantly seeing images in my head that are not things I can see. Therefore you will have to stay and explain it to me.” Youngwoon smiled that dangerously empty smile again.

“Why did you not tell the others? They were all honestly proclaiming their powers yet you kept quiet.” Homin immediately shot back, seizing the opportunity to corner the other. However Youngwoon remained unaffected by the accusation.

“Because it only just started happening. I thought it was the doing of one of them, but I guess not seeing how you respond to it.” The smile disappeared suddenly and Youngwoon turned around again to look at the door. His forehead creased in a frown before he sighed. “Heechul will never change, will he?” he muttered, but he obviously wasn’t angry – much.

“Youngwoon...” Homin started, immediately gaining the other’s attention. “No matter what your memories are of those you just saw in there, all that was over fifteen years ago. They need you now. Especially the one who just woke up; he’ll need you the most. And if you don’t help him, Kyuhyun will do more things he’ll regret. All of you, you belong together now even more than you used to in the past. I will help you guys if everyone allows me to, but first of all you need to help each other.”

The silence that fell between them was only interrupted by the rumble of people talking inside. Youngwoon was listening to the voices, but obviously also considering the things that had just been said to him. After a while, he suddenly nodded, taking a step towards the door.

“If you run, we will find you, don’t doubt that.” he stated as he reached for the handle. “And I’ll make sure it won’t be pretty.” With that, the eldest of vampires was left in a small hallway, discarded like a piece of trash.

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At the unspoken order, everything had blackened in front of Jungsoo’s eyes for a moment, before he felt his body sit up. His eyes opened almost automatically and he found himself looking at the people that were once his band members. None of them had noticed yet that he was awake, but that changed when he couldn’t stop the wave of regret washing through him. Immediately Jongwoon’s head whipped around and then everyone else looked as well.

The commotion that followed could best be described as fourteen guys having no clue what to say, but all talking anyway. Until Heechul suddenly started to move, walking over to Jungsoo and punching him without a warning. Several members gasped, some took a step forward in shock, but they all decided to stay out of it once Li Yin interfered.

“That one was for paralysing my girlfriend.” Heechul spoke calmly. “This one is for being such an idiot.” Instead of punching the other a second time, however, he pulled the nine days older male into a tight hug. “I missed that self-blaming look of yours, Jungsoo. It looks better on you than the arrogant grin you had before. Keep this expression for a while longer, okay? But do discard the feelings behind it. We need your leader brain right now. You couldn’t help it either. We’ll just find a way to work things out from where we are now. Leave the past be, none of us were in the right state of mind anyway.

Apparently that was a speech that settled Jungsoo’s feelings because he smiled lightly, although with a sad hint to it. The next moment he finally reached out to hug the other back. The tie that Jongwoon had held up depriving him of his emotions was obviously gone now. Everyone was so focused on the two eldest near the bed that they didn’t notice Youngwoon coming back in.

It wasn’t until said person suddenly called out Jongwoon’s name that all the heads turned again, right in time to see Jongwoon apparently had passed out in Youngwoon’s arms. Mere moments later Kyuhyun was standing next to them as well, having woken up the moment Jongwoon’s hold over him faltered. He took the unmoving body out of Youngwoon’s arms, stopping Misun with a mere word when she tried to get closer.

It was then that Youngwoon suddenly looked up and the moment his eyes found Jungsoo’s, the latter felt his body relax, a smile almost instantly appearing on his face. There was only a slight hesitance before Youngwoon smiled back and it was so familiar and comforting that he found it in himself to get up from the bed.

“Kyuhyun.” he said then, waiting for the vampire to look at him. He did after a moment, although obviously trying his best not to. Jungsoo merely smiled once their eyes met and opened his arms slightly, offering a hug. A split second long he feared the younger was going to get angry at him, but then the cold exterior broke and suddenly he was holding a half a head taller male, violently shaking in his arms.

“Ssh, it’s okay.” he muttered softly, patting the younger’s back and finding every bit of love he had in himself for the other. “It’s going to be okay.” Everyone else just looked at them, having no clue what was going on between the two o them. “It’s alright, Kyuhyun, it’s all okay.” They didn’t even seem to talk anymore after that as Kyuhyun just buried himself against his leader and Jungsoo merely held the other tightly.

It was only when the youngest of the two stopped trembling that Jungsoo looked up at the others, showing them a hesitant smile. “Hey guys.” he muttered, lifting one hand in greeting, the other still wrapped around Kyuhyun’s back. “It’s been a while.” He smiled a little wider then, his dimple showing as he let his eyes wander over his thirteen old friends and their three female companions. “I hope I didn’t cause too much problems?”

When those words left his mouth, Donghae suddenly stepped forward from behind the others, walking over to the eldest and wrapping his arms around both Kyuhyun and Jungsoo. It was a small gesture but they all knew how many emotions were behind it, the three of them clinging so close together and Donghae mumbling hushed reassurances to Kyuhyun. Jungsoo was slightly surprised, yet merely smiled a little wider then, happy to be accepted back in just like that.

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“What’s going on?” Hyukjae muttered to Sang Mi, who was still loyally standing on his left. “Why are they clinging together like that? What is the problem?” He tore his eyes away from the scene with some difficulty, looking up at the girl. “Why is the young kid crying, he seemed rather tough before?” The girl eyed him in surprise for a moment, before seeming to realise that his mindreading abilities had left him now that the danger was gone.

“I don’t know either, Hyukjae.” she replied just as softly, putting a hand on his shoulder and giving it a gentle squeeze. He felt himself lean into the touch, Sang Mi being the only person he knew, the only person he was sure of. Everyone else in the room with him were strangers, even though he was pretty sure they wouldn’t harm him, it still felt uncomfortable.

“Kyuhyun killed people in the past.” a voice suddenly spoke up on their right and Hyukjae turned his head to see Youngwoon standing there. “When he wasn’t aware yet of his own power. He used to have a girlfriend before we were all changed. One day he saw her with her new husband, a really nice guy who was very good for her. He got jealous and said something stupid, the next moment the words came true, the man died. It had happened a few times before and it was that day that he realised the sudden deaths or injuries weren’t mere coincidence.”

Hyukjae stared at the bigger male, wondering how he knew so many things – how everyone knew so many things while he was so clueless. Youngwoon turned to look at him then and their eyes met for a moment. He suddenly felt as if this guy in front of him could see right through him, which wouldn’t really have surprised him, honestly.

“I see images of the past.” Youngwoon confessed then, voice low. “Apparently I got the ability when the woman died. Being the first she changed I inherited part of her powers.” He frowned, looking over to Jungsoo again shortly before sighing. “I don’t even want to know what will happen if Homin should ever die.”

“Will that thing die anyway?” Sang Mi hissed, her hatred for said person obvious. When the two guys looked at her in surprise at that, she blushed slightly. “What? I really don’t like him. He just used everyone as puppets for his own survival.” She motioned a hand at the group. “And look at all of you now, almost scared of each other. I don’t get how you’re not even angry at him!”

Those words had the two of them frowning, thinking over the reasons why they were – indeed – not the least bit angry. In fact, thinking it over it became more suspicious than it had already been and they looked at each other to see if they felt the same. Right then, someone on Sang Mi’s left leaned closer and Hyukjae looked in the guy’s direction. Hangeng was his name, if he remembered quite well.

“We all got our powers from him. He’s using the ability Li Yin has to keep us calm. He made us all decide to just not care about what he did. There’s nothing much we can do about that. Whenever we do get angry from now on, he will make us decide on calming down every time again.” Hangeng calmly explained. He didn’t seem quite bothered by the idea, but it made Hyukjae incredibly uncomfortable and Youngwoon seemed to get angry anyway.

“That little piece of..” he muttered, but suddenly his eyes hazed over and he seemed to be out of it for a split second before coming back to the present. “He doesn’t mean bad with us anymore, though.” he then altered his words, still seeming slightly dazed. “Damn these powers will take some getting used to. I keep seeing scenes in my mind that don’t even add up to anything. But Homin.. I think right now he’s trying to help us. I think he feels a little sorry. If only a little.”

“Well that’s just great.” Sang Mi huffed. “It’s just a little too late for that, though. That stupid idiot destroyed everyone’s lives and now he’s feeling sorry?” She snorted, shaking her head, but before she could say anything else, movement from the three hugging guys made them all look up for a moment to see if everything was still okay.

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Donghae finally let go of his dongsaeng when he was completely sure Kyuhyun had calmed down. The usually so snarky boy seemed to be completely different from his usual self and it worried him how he had noticed the actual tears on the other’s cheeks. But he knew whatever was going on was between the two of them, so he straightened up a little and sent Jungsoo another small smile. Right as the leader smiled back at him, Kyuhyun spoke up.

“I’m sorry, hyung.” he whispered barely audible. “I never meant to hurt you. My anger just got the best of me and then suddenly it happened and…” He stopped there, seeming unable to finish his sentence, as if he was afraid that the rest of his words would piss the other off. But that didn’t seem to be the case, instead Jungsoo smiled at him and patted his shoulder.

“It’s okay, Kyuhyun-ah.” he replied just as softly. “I know you didn’t intend to hurt me. There was no way you could know. Besides; I’m slightly stupid for falling in love with that anyway.” He smiled lightly, exchanging one more look with the maknae before turning away and looking at the other members. He was over at Youngwoon in no time, almost immediately wrapping the other in a hug and allowing himself to be hugged back.

Donghae watched as Hyukjae slowly moved away from the two, moving to a more secluded part of the living room so Jungsoo wouldn’t suddenly storm at him for a hug as well. It hurt him how Hyukjae was so clueless still of everything they had been through together. He tried to imagine what it would be like, seeing this group of people without knowing anything of the past years spent together in unity. Suddenly a dull feeling came over him and he quietly focused on the leader again, just like everyone else was doing at that moment.

Jungsoo let go of Youngwoon not long after, giving him another smile and a pat before turning to the next best person, Hangeng. There were words mumbled in between the hugging and with one member Jungsoo lingered a little longer than with the other. When he reached Jongwoon, the two merely nodded at each other at first, Jungsoo seeming hesitant, Jongwoon downright unwilling, but in the end the leader stepped closer and hugged the other man anyway.

It went on like that, Jungsoo going past Shindong, Ryeowook and Henry. Donghae noticed he suddenly became aware of Kibum moments later, the original maknae allowing Jungsoo to wrap him in a hug as well, patting him awkwardly on the back and muttering something that surprisingly none of them understood. It didn’t take long for Jungsoo to let go again and move on to the next person.

When he was done hugging everyone, Jungsoo looked around once and then finally walked up to Hyukjae, his smile ever so bright with a dimple showing and everything. Donghae felt happy seeing that, knowing how scared the leader had been to be accepted. But Jungsoo hadn’t counted on Hyukjae’s inability to remember. So when he went to Hyukjae with open arms, the younger backed away, a frown on his face.

“I’m sorry, I don’t know who you are.” Hyukjae explained and Donghae could see Jungsoo’s face fall, expression growing shocked, maybe even a little hurt. He quickly walked up to the two, putting a hand on Jungsoo’s shoulder.

“He doesn’t remember, hyung.” he said then, smiling lightly at Hyukjae who seemed rather lost. “Apparently the only way to make him remember was via his original sire, the one who changed him, but she… Yeah.” Jungsoo’s eyes looked at him then, before going back to Hyukjae, confusion obvious in his expression. Right as Donghae wanted to explain it better, the leader spoke up however.

“But I am the one who changed him.”